FAIRYTALE LOVE
There was a time not too long ago, where I was lost in a place of disbelief.
In my feelings of content, its easy to be comfortable with what I felt was normal, and buried my grief. You grow up listenting to stories or tales of love and romance, giving hope to a young mind.
Only to realize after several failed attempts, true love isnt that easy to find.
Through trial and error you begin to wonder if such a feeling really exists.
Or was what you were taught all along, just a collection of fables and myths?
You give your heart away in faith that someone will keep it safe and sound,
But despite what you hoped for in the beginning, you end up picking the remains off the ground. Becoming numb is part of the process that leads us into fear,
Fear to love, fear to lose, and have everything yanked away that you hold dear.
Repeated moments hearing yourself say "this is the last time Im going to try"
Becuase youre tired of wasting your life away, trying to feel a love that satisfies.
But something in me kept saying "never give up, theres someone out there for you"
I wanted to believe it, but more and more it began to seem far from the truth.
People would tell me that God has a plan much greater than mine
But was it rediculous to believe in "soul mates" couples made through something divine.
Ive heard people tell me that they just knew that was who they were meant for
That the minute the saw that person, they fell in love, and everything about them they adored.
As a young child I dreamed of that day, and even wrote songs to "my future wife"
Not knowing when I would meet her, who she was, or what she would look like.
Some time has passed since then, and I sort of put those hopes away
I thought maybe the hopeless romantic side of me, has slowly began to fade.
Little did I know what was about to take place
It was almost like watching a miracle happen right in front of my face.
I had met this girl who undoubtedly had a heart as big as mine
and before my eyes, our paths had crossed, unexpectedly our lives aligned.
As I looked up at those beautiful eyes, and that smile, my heart beat so fast.
Time had lost its place, it stood still, and I just wanted that moment to last.
I had lost my breath, and needed to gather my senses becuase I couldnt believe it was real
"Butterflies in my stomach" I believe is the expression? that excitement that you feel.
I knew something was different from that moment on, something spaked inside of me.
For the first time, I felt alive, like my heart was finally set free
Free from all the doubt, the hurt, the emotions that kept it locked up tight
Free from all the pain, the fear, that caused my heart and soul to fight.
As time went on, the emotions grew, and by grow I only mean more strong.
I cant believe I had this in me, its like my heart knew all along
I understand now why people say "love at first sight"
It all started from that first kiss, that unforgettable night.
This is really it, the moment I waited for since I was young
Straight out of the lyrics from that song that I had sung.
My other half, my soulmate, the girl of my dreams,
I suppose finding that person wasnt quite as hard as it seemed.
It all about timing, not hers, not mine, but HIS.
And about being open hearted, open minded, and not being afraid to take the risk.
Im putting my heart out one last time for her becuase I know she will protect it,
I promised Id do the same for hers, and told her she better not forget it.
I only have God to thank for this blessing, it truely is a gift from above.
Its a forever kind of thing, its our story together, our "Fairytale of love."
<333333 my poem
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